Today I saw Dr Brad Anderson. He is a pediatrician in Provo. Teagan had a blast looking at all the fish in his office.
Dr Andersen did a great job of listening to mommy and nana describe what is going on. He said he is mommy's advocate. He said I can get a feeding peg placed in my tummy if mommy wants me to. He said the crying fits are not because I am in pain (sorry, I cry alot sometimes- poor mommy!). He also told mommy that in everyones brain there is a "vomit" sensor and he thinks mine is on the fritz. He thinks the muscles in my body are on the fritz too- that is why I cant breathe too good or poop etc etc. Hmmm.....interesting!
The good news is I dont need to get any more vaccinations or the flu shots....the bad news is... the reason is.... I wont be here long enough to "need" them.
It is just so weird to think someday soon I will be in Heaven. I am not sure what to say about that. I soooo LOVE my family(especially mommy) and dont want to leave them ( I am scared of that too!) but I also know Heavenly Father and His plan.
Mommy has been 'workin out' at the gym...I think it is to beef up her muscles to hold me...I do weigh 24 pounds now....pure hunky, chunky! I know she gets worn out taking care of me but she does it anyway...she never complains- just gives me a kiss on my forhead and tell me she loves me.
I love you mommy! thank you for having such patience with me. I know it is not easy on you- I see the tiredness in your eyes somedays. I know carrying me around is hard and I appreciate the rides. I just love you so much!
Mommy, its OK. I know we will miss each other but really its OK....I will be fine and I will watch over you...I will be there for you like you have been there for me. You have stolen my heart and I love you so! Remember this wont be forever and someday we will be able to do all the things we could not do on this earth...The first thing I am going to do is give you a big ole boy hug (not the mormon 3 slap on the back hug... but a BIG one!!) I will finally get to hold you in my arms. Then I am going to plant a big ole kiss on your forehead and finally be able to tell you in my own voice how special you are and how much I love you!
Mommy, I am scared too. You are my everything. Thank you for holding me a little longer tonight before I go to bed. I feel so 'safe' when I am in your arms.
I love you!
Bosty
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