No two people EVER have the same ideas.....especially doctors. Yesterday I saw a great doctor...mommy felt like we were going in the right direction.....then today BOOM! A genetist tells mommy its maybe something different. UUURRGGGHHHH! Make up your minds people!

Well, they all agree on a couple of things...I need a JPEG and the sooner the better. I will go to Primarys where they can do the surgery and do the genetic testing all at the same time. WAHOO! Results 10-28 days. Haha....yea, right, sure, heard that before.

Those doctors MUST take some really weird language classes.....today they said I could have "sara oiled lip fusin otis" or may be "pleassseee us misses teacher"(...be sure to say them with a german accent like the doctor then they sound wonderfully medical and technical). Do you think they EVER come in and just rattle off baby gibberish (with a german accent) just to see if you will catch on??? I am begining to wonder...they DO sound the same.

Today was COOOOLLLD! BUrrr! Cold! What the heck- cold. I like it warm and do not like Alaska in Utah. I think I would love, love, love Hawaii.....Ahhhh....I love the heat!

I think we are all doctored out until the surgery. YIPEE!

I think mommy is going to WWF wrestle the next doctor that says something else....GO mommy! Honestly, my mommy is buff and I think she could kick some white coat backends. Too bad my mommy is so nice to everyone....that could be exciting!

The docs think once I get the JPEG they will be able to regulate my diet and I can loose some of my fat...I AM NOT FAT...I am squishy soft and adorably rounded around the mid section....OK, so I am a little chunky monkey.....OK, so I out weigh Teaggie....Nothing bad about that is there...OK, dont comment now....I'd rather not hear it. Maybe they have work out tapes for infants....Maybe Barney leads them (he is roundish)...He could be my biggest loser coach! CCCOOOOOOOLLL! Totally (I said that like Crush on Finding Nemo).

I am a little nervous about losing my bottle....I love my bottle and we have been good buddies. Do you think my JPEG will like me? Do you think it will make me look fat (fatter)? Will people see it and stare? I am a little nervous to be different. Someday I wish people would not look at me and go "Awweee, Bosty" in THAT tone. I just want to be me-Bosty.

Lost in thoughts,

Bosty

PS Mommy, I HEART you!! MUAH!

Doctor Appt

Today I saw Dr Brad Anderson. He is a pediatrician in Provo. Teagan had a blast looking at all the fish in his office.

Dr Andersen did a great job of listening to mommy and nana describe what is going on. He said he is mommy's advocate. He said I can get a feeding peg placed in my tummy if mommy wants me to. He said the crying fits are not because I am in pain (sorry, I cry alot sometimes- poor mommy!). He also told mommy that in everyones brain there is a "vomit" sensor and he thinks mine is on the fritz. He thinks the muscles in my body are on the fritz too- that is why I cant breathe too good or poop etc etc. Hmmm.....interesting!

The good news is I dont need to get any more vaccinations or the flu shots....the bad news is... the reason is.... I wont be here long enough to "need" them.

It is just so weird to think someday soon I will be in Heaven. I am not sure what to say about that. I soooo LOVE my family(especially mommy) and dont want to leave them ( I am scared of that too!) but I also know Heavenly Father and His plan.

Mommy has been 'workin out' at the gym...I think it is to beef up her muscles to hold me...I do weigh 24 pounds now....pure hunky, chunky! I know she gets worn out taking care of me but she does it anyway...she never complains- just gives me a kiss on my forhead and tell me she loves me.

I love you mommy! thank you for having such patience with me. I know it is not easy on you- I see the tiredness in your eyes somedays. I know carrying me around is hard and I appreciate the rides. I just love you so much!

Mommy, its OK. I know we will miss each other but really its OK....I will be fine and I will watch over you...I will be there for you like you have been there for me. You have stolen my heart and I love you so! Remember this wont be forever and someday we will be able to do all the things we could not do on this earth...The first thing I am going to do is give you a big ole boy hug (not the mormon 3 slap on the back hug... but a BIG one!!) I will finally get to hold you in my arms. Then I am going to plant a big ole kiss on your forehead and finally be able to tell you in my own voice how special you are and how much I love you!

Mommy, I am scared too. You are my everything. Thank you for holding me a little longer tonight before I go to bed. I feel so 'safe' when I am in your arms.

I love you!

Bosty

Baby Taya's Blessing Day

Today I went to church with my Mommy and Daddy. My baby cousin Taya was blessed by his Daddy my Uncle Jason. Here is a picture of them. It was a beautiful blessing. My Uncle Jason got all choked up. He did a good job blessing Taya. I know the spirit was in the room I could feel it ! My cousin Taya is only 4 months younger then me. I wish we had more time to spend together but we got to talk a lot before we were born ! I know we will see each other for eternity ! She had on a beautiful white dress. Then my Aunt Karen and Aunt Sandy both bore their testimony about how much they love family and the gospel. They were both emotional but I know they were happy. They both know the church is true and it gives me strength to hear their testimony's. Then we had fun over at Uncle Jason and Aunt Karens house for lunch ! It smelled yummy ! Once again I got passed around from Aunt to Uncle...I must be pretty dang cute cause they all want to hold me !

Love Bosty

Aunt Melissa and homecoming

Today we got to go see Aunt Melissa at a football game. I could feel the cool, crisp air and hear the announcer at the game.....Aunt Melissa was not named queen there...but in my heart she will always be my "queen"-I love her so much!

Trip to the ER

Yesterday mommy and nana took me to the ER....we were there a long time....8 hours! URGH!!!

Mommy took me there because I kept throwing up...EVERYTHING! OOOOOPPS!

They took some pictures of my stud-ly body- They must think I am a hottie! Then some nurses came to start an IV...then more nurses came and tried....then more....then even more.....7 sticks later still no IV...my veins were shy last night. All in all a long night and pretty boring. I have a slow section of bowel ...sounds like the traffic report huh? :-) ...I guess it sorta is my "traffic report". I have some pneumonia still because I dont breathe really deep.....Maybe I should sing now.... "how deep is your lungs, how deep is your lungs"...Go Bee Gees (Poppa would be so proud!). I have a SSSLLLLOOOOWWW metabolism.....Kinda like the snake on the jungle book. Okay, so what else could be going wrong.... They put this medicine in my mouth to help me stop vomitting...it dissolves in your mouth like magic. Then I got some pedialyte-unflavored....not exactly "yummy" but at that point about anything would have tasted good.

I need to find a good pediatrican in Utah County. Someone who knows special cases- like ME! And can help mommy figure this all out...I am certain we will find a special one who will love me and help me with all this.

Now, I have to say something about mommy.....she is really tired. Mommy works so hard to help me and sometimes my needs are great but mommy is a real trooper.....and she hangs in there really well but I am worried about her. She is wearing herself out. I love you mommy, I will never be able to tell you how much I love you and thank you enough for all you do for me- you are my guardian angel and someday I will be yours. I love you so much!

And to my big bro Teaggie...thanks for always remembering me in your prayers...I hear them and they make me grin. Just one thing though....you need to stop singing "happy to you" in sacrament meeting during the songs.....at the top of your lungs. Its cute but..........Oh well, just do it...the Lord knows your are singing to Him and you love Him. I love you bro!

Popa, you are my protector and I love you. Dont worry, you will still always be my protector...........even if you can not stop the nurses from having to stick me again and again. Thanks for always holding me and explaining everything to me. I heart you!

Muah and muah more......Bosty

Its not easy being me

Somedays its just not that easy to be me....and my dreams dont always take me somewhere else.

The doctors are so slow and I am cranky....I dont feel good and I can't really tell mommy what is wrong beyond crying.......I am so sorry mommy, I love you!

I cant eat, I cant find my bottle, I have been throwing up A LOT, I hurt, I am sad and I am cranky....I wish the doctor would call mommy so I can feel better and mommy can get some rest.

Bosty

Happy Birthday Uncle Joseph

Tonight was Uncle Joseph's Birthday! We went to Grandma Jensen's house to have dutch oven cobbler ! It smelled so yummy ! I heard everyone singing Happy Birthday really fast ! That's how the Jensen's like to sing it ! Super Fast ! Then I heard my brother Teagen sing a solo. He sang Happy Happy Happy and everyone was laughing saying he is so cute ! Aunt Sandy rocked me and bounced me until I fell asleep ! She held me for almost an hour ! Aunt Karen offered to take a turn but Aunt Sandy wanted to keep me in her arms ! Aunt Karen was there , I know because I kept hearing her say how she was mad because she forgot her camera ! I knew something was missing when I didn't hear the click , click, click. She loves to take pictures of me. She say's she can't get enough ! She can't wait to take pictures of me in her new studio! She say's I'm the first one she wants to take pictures of. Mommy and Karen have been trying to figure out a better car seat situation for me ! I'm getting so heavy mommy's arms are tired ! I love my mommy and daddy. They carry me around no matter what ! I know I'm getting heavy. Tonight my daddy carried me out to the car and Aunt Karen was telling mommy how my feet are hanging off the end ! They are going to try and think of something that will make it easier on my mom and dad to carry me around ! I had fun at Grandma Jensen's house!
I love going there ! Everyone loves to see me ! I must be pretty special !

FOOTBALL !

Today I went to Aunt Karen and Uncle Jason's house to watch the Utah football game ! Mommy and Daddy came too ! They had all sorts of yummy snacks ! I wish I could have some ! I could hear Uncle Jason getting upset when the football players weren't doing that great ! He said the defense wasn't that great at all ! Aunt Karen has a bouncer that works perfect for me ! I slept in it almost the whole time! Then I decided to open my eye's and just lay there ! I listened to all the sounds around me ! Teagen and Ember kept fighting over the same toy's. They always want what the other one has ! Aunt Karen and Daddy have to keep getting up to break up the fight! I heard daddy tell Teagen he needs to share the Barbie Vacuum ! Everyone was laughing cause Teagan loves the strollers and dolls and the Barbie vacuum ! Aunt Karen has four girls so there are no good toys for little boy's there. I heard her say she wants to get a few trucks and stuff that little boy's can play with . I was wishing I could play with any toy's at all ! I sometimes get bored laying here. I wonder what it would be like to sit up and play ! Or run around outside ! One day I will get to do all those fun things ! I know that Heavenly Father loves me and will give me the chance to run and play someday ! I know that everything will be okay !

OOPS!

Today my doctor...Doctor Sakonju called and talked to mommy....it was a call we were all dreading. I need to have a JPEG put in. I will no longer eat from a bottle but from a plug on the side of my belly. They also will be doing a muscle biopsy to see how my metabolics are doing. And then a sleep study and breathing study....they dont thing those are working too well either. The good news is that they received permission for the genetic testing too! THat will happen on the 30th of this month. We are waiting for the surgeon to call....a few days in the hospital and we will be good to go. I wonder if I will miss my bottle.....Will I miss sucking on it even thought I still like my binkie???? I will let ya know!

Other than that mommy moved my bedroom out of hers and now I have a mansion next to the Teaggie man.

Thank you mommy for always taking such good care of me- you are my number one fan and you are my biggest hero! I love you forever,

Bosty

I have not been eating well for the past little bit....I know I look like I am eating well....all that padding and such but it is hard for me to figure out what to do with that bottle. Then, sometimes I just throw everything up- for hours I cover the world with yuck. GROSS! I hate throwing up and poor mommy has to wash and wash and wash by the time I am done. Sorry mommy! Hopefully we can get something better going this week.

Not much going on this week except- I snuck in the halls of church the other day and heard the Primary kids singing and loved it. I sat there in my stroller and heard them singing away and it was so good. They did not know I was there, but the Timpview 8th ward Primary KNOWS how to sing!

I love you mommy...thanks for taking such great care of me. I know it is hard because I still get up so much at night. I know it is a lot of work for you to care for me....everyday there is SOMETHING...whether it is physical therapy, kids on the move, medicine, shots, suctioning at the hospital, doctor calls, doctor visits, etc etc on top of the bottles, pooppie diapers, wet diapers, throwing up, baths- you have a lot to do...and you do it so willingly. Thanks mommy! I love you so much!

Today is my Auntie Lucy's 19th birthday....She is so adorably squishy cute! I love you Aunt Lucy! Hope you have a "happy to you" and all your wishes come true! MUAH!
Bosty

Here is a picture of me with my Pranger cousins....First is me and then Teagan, Colton and Phoenix. We are all wearing shirts Great-Granpa and GranmaTurcott gave us on our Oregon vacation.

I love my cousins....they are all really good to me...they talk to me, try to play with me and best of all, they give me kisses.

Bosty

Yesterday I got to hang out with mommy. She is awesome!

Then we went to Nana and Poppa's and got to hang out there for a bit. I got a new blankie this weekend - it is green and sikly soft on one side and squishy soft on the other- it is wonderful to snuggle in. I am just gaga over it!

I also got to go to church with mommy, nana, poppa and Melissa. I snuggled in their arms and had a delightful three hour snooze.

I am feeling better.....the pneumonia is out of my lungs- I jut cant cough it out of the broch tubes. I have had to be suctioned twice now. If you have never seen a baby get suctioned let me now shed some light on it for you.....they put this gunk on the tip of a tube, then put it in your nose and down your throat. It feels weird and I gag and choke on it. Then they "release the dogs" (air) to suck up the gunk. I, being the over-acheiver, always give them way more than they expect. I am really good at producing gunk and then giving it away. Presents for those wonderful ladies and men who suck my gunk! They always act so pleased with my gifts too! Imagine!

Mostly it was 4 days of "happy to you, Teagan" which was a ton of fun, but exhausting.

Snuggles, Bosty

Happy Fourth of July !

Labor Day Fun

I went to a BBQ for Labor Day and to celebrate Teagan and Ember's birthdays over at my Grandma and Grandpa Jensen's house. It is so fun to be there and listen to 20 different conversations going on at once! I know Aunt Karen is there because I hear the clicking of her camera, I hope she got a lot of cute pictures of me! I love being held by so many different people. Missy held me for a long time, she was so comfortable that I feel asleep listening to her heartbeat. Aunt Sandy took me next, she whispers to me how much she loves me and that she is so grateful I get to be a part of her life. My cousins; Jade, Teren, Kyra, Malia, Summer, Ember, Maddie, Alex, Tobias, Ada and Mckayla all come over and rub my face and tell me how cute I am! I love cousins, I can hear them laugh and play and it makes me happy to know that I have them in my life and that they take the time to come over to talk to me and kiss me and rub me! I love it when they include me too! Oh, there's Aunt Karen, I heard the click but then she leans down and kisses my cheek. I am lucky to have so many people that love me so much. I wish I could see them but their touch means so much to me. Aunt Carissa took me because she said she hadn't held me all day. I am so lucky to just sit back, relax and be comfortable in all of my many Aunts and Uncles arms. I hear my Uncle's, they are so funny! I can hear Uncle Jason, Joel, Justin and Joseph; they tell funny stories and I hear everyone laughing! Uncle Joseph teaches all of the nieces and nephews, even me, how to put out hands together in a circle and say "Whoa Jensen!" While we lift our hands to heaven. I'm proud to say that! We are a team and I'm glad mommy found daddy so we could all be on the same team! Oh, I almost forgot...Aunt Maria and Uncle George had a baby girl on Labor Day, Sept.7. Her name is Lorea and she will be friends with Taya. Taya was just born to Uncle Jason and Aunt Karen on Aug. 6, 2009. I love family!.......

My nana

Family Pictures

Today we went to get our family pictures taken ! My Aunt Karen get's so excited with her camera! I kept hearing a click, click , click sound. She took over 300 pictures ! We went by some train tracks. Teagen kept saying " choo choo " and he was running around and up and down the train tracks. I wish that I could run up and down the tracks with him. I was pretending to be the conductor. There is a story called the little train that could. It's about a train that is trying so hard to make it up a hill. It keeps saying " I think I can, I think I can. " I hope my mom and dad keep saying that when this get's really hard for them. I know they can do it. Heavenly Father has promised us he will never give us more then we can handle ! I think I can do this even though it's hard and not very much fun to be sick ! Aunt Karen was trying so hard to take pictures of me but I didn't feel very good so I was kind of cranky ! She's going to do my very own photo shoot in her studio next week ! She say's I am so adorable ! Here are some of the pictures of my family ! I love them so much ! I know they love me too !

Happy TOOO you Teagan!

Today is my big brother Teagan's birthday- He is offically 2 and can not say "almost 2" any more.

He loves to laugh but cries really easy too. He loves to gives kisses and I like them much better now that he puckers instead of giving wide open mouth kisses....but lately he sticks out his tongue when you ask him to kiss- EWWUUUEEE!

He tells you he has "pooooppppeee" when it is just gas and is not quiet about announcing it.

He loves dogs, airpains, singing, elmo and horseys- except when they get too close.

He is sloppy and gets food everywhere.

He loves treats.

He is cool, he is fun and he simply loves life.

He sings Happy to you- but the happy is drawn out and the TO is sung at a scream level then you is a whisper.

He says prayers- well, he fold his arms and sticks his head in the middle says "father....eat......AMEN!" in that order.


I love you Teaggie!! Thanks for setting a good example for me. I could not have had a better big brother...my protector, my friend and my hero.

teagan is my protector when he lets mommy go to doctor appts with me and doesn't complain.

teagan is my friend when he comes over to check on me ...... He makes sure I have someone to talk to and plays toys on me like we were playing together. I wish I could play with him.

teagan is my hero because he had to fight too. He fought really hard when he was born to stay with mommy and daddy. He set a good example for me of how to fight, how to pray and how to love.

I love you Teaggie...good luck with being 2......maybe I should wish mommy and daddy good luck....

Someday, we really will be able to play together...and talk and sing and do all the things I cant do with you now. Thanks for always including me and watching out for me.

You always watch my back and I will always watch yours- even if it is from heaven.

Love you big bro !(even if we weigh the same)

Bosty

Auntie Lucy

Hey Auntie Lucy.....Just wanted to say thanks for hanging out with mommy, Teagan and me yesterday. You are super cool and super fun. I wish I could stay and hang with you longer....You could probably teach me some really cool things like how to disco roller skate, you could show me that giant spanish soldier in your bedroom and explain why you thought he was so cool, you could play games with me, hold me and love me even more....but I cant stay- not even though you beg Father to let me stay. I am so glad you always said IF not when...thank you for always holding on to hope but..... it is my time. I love you and will always be here whispering in your ear and encouraging you on.

Father is there also, He loves you too. He knows this is hard for you. Trust in his love, trust in our love and simply trust your heart.....you know what is real.

Thank you for always loving me so much that I did not want to go and leave you. Thank you for taking care of mommy and being her BFF...she needs you.

I always felt your love and knew you would be one of my greatest heros.

You will be forever in my heart!

Mushy love, Bosty

Mommy took me to Dr Berry yesterday....I still have lots of rattles in my lungs....it is weird to hear them talk about me...about when I go to Heaven. I know this is so hard for mommy. The doctor talks to her about so many things.... "quality of life".....in the end the results will be the same- I am going to Heaven. Its just trying to let go that is hard, for all of us- even me.

Mommy said that right now we are just going to enjoy our time....I have been enjoying my time all along mommy.

Mommy, I love you. You are mushy, squishy cute and I am so lucky to have you!

I feel love, I know love and I love my family so much. I had such a great adventure here but the time is coming (soon) that I must go to Heaven. I know it is hard to understand the why of it all...I dont even know if I know....but I know when I get to Heaven and talk to Jesus we will talk about it, then I will understand. What I do know is I have the most wonderful mommy, a daddy who loves me and a big brother who loves me and is tender with me always.

Its funny sometimes Teagan just wants to hold me. I like that. I will miss that. He talks to me in a high pitched tone and gives me so many kisses. We will be brothers forever.

I also know that I love my family.....all of them. They have loved me and cared for me with such honor, love and compassion.

I know this is hard for some of my family....I wish I knew the magic words to whisper in your ears. But what I can tell you is that I love you and trust in what you felt when you held me- when you held me it seemed like the world stopped, just for a moment, and we could peek at eternity. There was such love- pure love- in those moments. Trust in those, believe in those moments. They were a gift from Father to help you know He is there with us in this journey. I dont think Father wanted this to happen....its just sometimes, I think, the laws of this earth can not be broken...some things can not be fixed on this earth. But Father knew that it was one of the consequences of the laws that govern this earth- that is why He promised to fix it all. Father promises that He will fix that which was wrong in this world- all the injustices. But He can not fix them all now- not on this earth- but in His world He can. I know it is hard to understand but just trust me on this- trust yourself on this and dont linger with the whys for too long....some just cant be answered....you just got to stick with trust on this one.

I love you so much......................you will be forever in my heart too.

Bosty