On Monday I passed into a comatose state. I am dreaming the MOST incredible dreams and peace has entered my life. You know that moment, after you first sorta wake up after surgery and you can hear but everything is really, really fuzzy....that is where I am. Angels surround me and are here helping me. I am a bit scared- but only because I will miss mommy.

Its so amazing....my heart is so full of love....... for my family...... my Savior and.. for my Father in Heaven. Its all so real and so overwhelming.

"I can only imagine

What it will be like When I walk By your side

I can only imagine

What my eyes will see When your face Is before me

I can only imagine, I can only imagine .....

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel

Will I dance for you Jesus or in honour of you be still.

Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall.

Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all.........

I can only imagine"

Soon.....I will be there soon......... and then I will no longer imagine....I will see, feel and hear it all. Sounds pretty amazing and incredible, huh? I'll wait for you there.


Bosty

I did get to have Christmas with my family. It was tough....I didnt (and dont) feel good, it was really just no fun....even though it was Christmas. The vomiting has come back 200 times worse. My breathing is hard. Its just tough on everyone. Poor Mommy has not gotten any sleep...I am sick all night throwing up. Popa gave me a blessing this weekend. I love you Popa!

Mommy....I love you! ....in case I did not say it lately....you are the best!

Bosty

Christmas Jensen Style

Wow did I go to an exciting Christmas Party ! My daddy's side of the family ( the Jensen Clan ) had their annual Christmas party ! They say it get's noisier ever year and more fun ! I sat with daddy in the chair a lot of the time. I got to sit on Santa's lap! I didn't mind, but Teagen......he wasn't so sure. Aunt Karen didn't even get a picture of him on his lap because he was clinging to daddy !! Mommy was laughing she thought it was funny ! He was SCARED of santa !!! I got a present from Santa. Here's some pictures of me . Aunt Karen thinks it looks like I am trying to look over at him....who know's maybe I am !!!! I could feel that itchy beard on my skin !!!
Merry Christmas everyone !

BYU vs Oregon State

OH BOY!!! Oregon State, what happened??????????...my guess is toooooooooo much, way tooo much Vegas..... after that horrific kick that went practically backwards....... BYU steamrolled all the way. Good fun, good family and a good game (if you were rooting for BYU)...YIKES!!

In other news....I am slowly gaining ground on the vomit comet....he is a trickly little guy but I am skeakin up on him (with my Indiana Jones hat) and getting better at keeping him in a trance.

Bosty

Still......

yep, dodge truck tough....cowboy up.....had my gun loaded....that vomit comet is one sneaky, slippery little guy. Tried more valium, off the night feedings, more zofran...still he lingers on. DANG IT! Maybe I need to just have my great-popa take him out behind the barn....Grandpa Turcott is pretty good at that.

Oh well, on to the next tough thing I could think of.....Maybe I could pretend to be a.............snake charmer!!! Oh ya, I could put the vomeit comet into a trance and then....beat the stuffins out of him! Okay, now I need me a hat like Indiana Jones....and some cool duds too..... oh, and a WHIP....THIS COULD BE FUN!

Game on Vomit Comet....at some point I will be victorious...just gotta find the right outfit!

In other news....Went to Popa and Nanny's on Saturday got to watch a Christmas Concert and Football with Popa. Then Aunt Mel took me to Christmas in the Commons at her school...AWESOME! Then church on Sunday...I have not got to go in a few weeks and the Christmas program was SPECTACULAR! Then Nanny took me to the 9th wards program too. TWO programs....it was great. But in the afternoon I started getting cranky and not feeling so well....it was a rough afternoon and evening. URG! UGGG! and YUCK! I even was too cranky to decorate a gingerbread house....remember that M&M enema...the smell of gingerbread....oh boy, that did not bring back some good memories.

I hate coughing. period. end of discussion. I will be glad when I can really breathe again. This sucks!

Love you Mommy....you are the cutest thing around...even cuter than me....well, nothing can be as cute as me but you do come in at a close second! :-) MUAH at YOU!

Bosty

So the superhero thing is not working so well...guess I will try....HOWDY........ the western way....Cowboy up and be dodge truck tough....watch out vomit comet I'm comin at ya with both barrells loaded! Hey, do you think they have a bull named the 'vomit comet'????????? Gotta check into that....

Ridin the wild west on my horsey..."dawg" (popa always said he'd name his horse dog- I got it first popa!), got my hat and my gun....lookin for showdown with the ole vomit comet....gonna give him a piece of justice. Ole John Wayne got nothin on me.

BJ (Boston Jensen- just BJ sounds more westernish) from Orem, Utah (all the GOOD bull riders tell where they are from)

In case youre wondering..............

Why in so many of my pictures I am in the stroller...well, my neck is floppy and if it is not held in the right position it is hard for me to breathe. It is not that I dont like being held or that I dont get held...I am held ALL THE TIME....its just when I am out and about I would rather my neck be held in one position so it is easier to breathe..

And now you know............the rest of the story (as Paul Harvey can ONLY say).

Timpanogos Choir Christmas Concert

Last night I got to hear Aunt Melissa sing with her high school choir concert.....in a word...AW..ES..OME!!!! THEY KNOCKED ONE OUT OF THE BALLPARK with that concert. And Aunt Melissa....she was an angel amoungst so many other angels...Thanks THS choir....I flashed you one of my rarely seen smiles....I really big one! One that really touched my heart is "the first noel"...."born is the King"....and I love him and when the angels sang about what the angels said....doesnt get much better folks!

Ya know, the docs say I dont hear very well...but maybe someone should tell the docs that whenever music plays I rest peacefully and comfortably and my eyes widen and I get this excited look......DUH! I can hear and I LOVE it.

The hospice nurse came again yesterday.....my lungs are worse....she uped my valium in hopes of deadening the brain nerves to slay the vomit comet. Lets hope and pray it works...i hate the vomit comet!

Mommy....muah, muah and MUAH!

Bosty

My giggle

A few months ago I told you how I giggled....just once...well, if you want to see it look back to the post that is headed "I can giggle"....its all there - sure to win an oscar.

Bosty.

Oh yea....I almost forgot.....remember those teeth buds....well, they blossomed to full fledged teeth....CHOPPERS to be exact. Gotta love it baby!

PS: Anyone got any ideas on how to slay the vomit comet?

• valium - check
• zofran- check, check
• a really cool sword- mommy wont allow swords in the house............ Bummer!)
• prayers- check (duh! really, come on its me we're talkin about....... duh?!)
• a cool cape- hmmm...be right back, I need to talk to mommy.

Bosty

CRRRAAANNNKKYY....Sorry folks but I am cranky...as cranky as can be. Somedays it just 'sucks to be me' and I have myself a party of my own- a pity party. Sunday was one of those days.....YUCK! Somedays I wish my little chubbies (legs) would work and I could run far far away from reality.....I am sure mommy would come with me too!!

Yesterday I also got to watch last years Christmas Concert with Popa...the 'professionals' say I can not hear but then why do I settle down when I hear good music?????? One of popa's favorite is the animal song- this dude singer belts out a great one using his voice to sound like a cow, a sheep and a horse. Funny! We could have listened to that song for hours! Then we went upstairs to hear Teagan pretend to be Santa and say "ho ho ho" into a microphone attached to the fake Santa....

My mommy is AWESOME!!! She hangs with me EVERY NIGHT while we draw out our swords and try to slay the vomit comet...she changes ALL my clothes at least 3 times a night....She holds and cuddles me even when she is beyond tired. I think of all the superheros in the world she is the best!!! Think about it folks, have you EVER seen a superhero fight the vomit comet? My mommy is one way good, way cool, way cute, super-de-dupper-hero!

I LOVE YOU MOMMY!

Bosty

I hate the vomit comet but the vomit comet likes...no LOVES...me! I have never wanted to ditch someone/something before (except Relief Society) but I think I could be just fine and dandy to ditch the vomit comet....he is not a good person to hang with! And he comes in the middle of the night and tries to keep mommy and me away fromour favorite...sleep. The only good thing that happens is I get more snuggle time with mommy....but even that is not worth it....I dont need it...I am too irresistable for her !!!

GRRRR! I bet I could get Teagan to give him the ole evil stink eye....he'd run for sure if he got one of those from Teagan! On Tueday when I had "return of the vomit comet".....Teagan came over to me and put his hand on my head and asked me if I was OK....I love you Teagan- you are the BEST!

Lets all hope the vomit comet is not a mini-series and sticks with being a Rocky sequel movie! 4 nights of this and I am ready to scream "UNCLE"....by the way how did the word "uncle" become the word for 'I give up' ???? Well, Rocky was a tough dude but he never did meet the vomit comet.....guess that would not have made a good movie....no one would buy popcorn and drinks for it either. GRRROOOSSSSSSS! maybe I should cry "uncle" so my uncles can rescue me...

Gotta go....I am busy........ defending against the vomit comet.....Bosty

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ..........ME!!!

Today is my unbirthday birthday.....I am 10 months old!!! Today we are having a birthday party at Popa and Nanny's.....

Happy birthday to ME!

Teeth..really? Yes...really!

I know pretty cool huh? I have 2 teeth buds!!...and they are almost through. Pretty Cool! We found them on Sunday afternoon....Nanny and I were hanging out and she saw me moving my toungue around and decided to stick her finger in there...ta-dah! and TA-DAH!!!

Things are pretty rough around here....I just can not breathe! I choke and gag...it is so hard and scary. But amidst all the yuck there is always some ray of sunshine...like my new teeth buds...and..........

I GOT TO SEE SANTA!

All my Pranger cousins and I went to the mall Saturday night and saw Santa. It had been a long day and I sorta dozed in and out through the entire thing but...we saw Santa!

Then on Sunday....I woke up to Teagan yelling with excitement....SNOW!!! Pretty cool stuff if I say so myself.

I am scared but I also have complete faith in my Father in Heaven....a day at a time...one step right after the other.....

Mommy, thanks for spending all your sleepless nights helping me try to breathe. I know you are tired..you have been awake most nights for a week....I love you SOOO MUCH! BIG ole MUAH at ya!

Bosty

If I could save time in a bottle
The first thing that I'd like to do
Is to save every day
Till Eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you

If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
I'd save every day like a treasure and then
Again, I would spend them with you

If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty
Except for the memory
Of how they were answered by you

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You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I'll be there
I'll reach out my hand to you, I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I'll be there
I'll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you, I'm so glad that I found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and I'll be there

If you should ever find someone new, I know he'd better be good to you
'Cause if he doesn't, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there
I'll be there, I'll be there, whenever you need me, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there...

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Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high

If I had a day that I could give you
I'd give to you a day just like today
If I had a song that I could sing for you
I'd sing a song to make you feel this way

Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high

If I had a tale that I could tell you
I'd tell a tale sure to make you smile
If I had a wish that I could wish for you
I'd make a wish for sunshine all the while

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I pray you'll be my eyes
And watch him where he goes
And help him to be wise
Help me to let go

Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Lead him to a place
Guide him with your grace
To a place where he'll be safe

I pray he finds your light
And holds it in his heart
As darkness falls each night
Remind him where you are

Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Need to find a place
Guide him to a place
Give him faith so he'll be safe

Lead him to a place
Guide him with your grace
To a place where he'll be safe

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Someday, when we are wiser
When the world's older
When we have learned
I pray someday we may yet
Live to live and let live

Someday, life will be fairer
Need will be rarer
And greed will not pay
Godspeed, this bright millenia
On it's way, let it come someday

Someday our fight will be won, and
We'll stand in the sun, in
That bright afternoon
'Til then, on days when the sun
Is gone, we'll hang on
If we wish upon the moon

There are some days, dark and bitter
Seems we haven't got a prayer
But a prayer for something better
Is the one thing we all share

Someday, when we are wiser
When the whole world is older
When we have love
And I pray someday we may yet
Live to live and one day, someday
Someday life will be fairer
Need will be rarer
And greed will not pay

Godspeed this bright millenia
Let it come If we wish upon the moon
One day, someday....soon


I am leaving soon.....I love you all with all my heart....especially my mommy, my hero...Forever...I WILL see you there.

Bosty

I LOVE YOU MOMMY!

:-)